An Ex Evangelical Walks into a Christian Concert
Attending a Christian concert after deconstructing my faith
It was in August of last year when all of my beliefs in God and Christianity finally crumbled away completely. After many years of questioning, doubting and searching, it finally happened. I’m not a Christian anymore. What I can see looking back on it now is that it was inevitable.
But for some reason I still wanted to go to a Christian concert.
In my defense, this wasn’t just any Christian band and it wasn’t your typical Christian music. They made good music that just so happened to have Christian lyrics. I loved their sound and I still do. If they ever make a secular album, I’d buy it in a heartbeat.
Their music had also helped me through some of the hardest times of my life; escaping my abusive father and my parents’ subsequent divorce.
I found hope, comfort and healing in their songs. Their lyrics deeply resonated with me and made me feel like I would be okay and that I would get through it. Their words told me that God was with me and would help me through. That turned out not to be true.
I had just watched a livestream concert of theirs, so when my friend Lori invited me to a live show, I was excited to go.